April 28, 2004


Wow. ĎTwas the first day of the rest of my life and Iím feeling strange. Itís weird not having a day job. I took a look around the house and realized damn Iím behind on domestic crap. I canít believe thereís so much around here that needs to be done that hasnít been done. When I only have so much time for chores and whatnot I can only ďseeĒ so much.

I donít feel normal. I have vestigial work stress hanging over me, like I have to get up and go to work tomorrow, or at least on Monday. I have free time to do lots of stuff that needs to be done, but it feels like that free time will end any minute. It wonít. Iíve been working seventy hours a week counting my multiple jobs and projects (including this blog) and now Iím way down. I wonít get back to that schedule for a long time because I donít need to. That doesnít seem real. It hasnít sunk in yet.

I dreamed about my now-former job, which I held for four and a half years, for the first time ever last night. In my dream I went to work like it was a normal day. It was a boring dream of a boring day, and I woke from that dream feeling like I was in another dimension.

I have no idea what happened in the world today because Iíve been inside my own head. I donít have any opinions today. Itís kinda nice for a change.

Iíll be back when I get sorted out. Could be any minuteÖ

Posted by Michael J. Totten at April 28, 2004 9:18 PM
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